Update: It's been awhile

 Hello to everyone who is currently reading this, I've decided to finally take up the hobby of blogging. Right now is not such a great time for me, honestly, I've been a grinch lately. My mom brought it up to me many times, and I've been ignoring her. Today....I snapped. Not like the kind where it destroys everything and ruins relationships. 

It was a silent one 

Those are the worst kind in my opinion. So I've decided to do the worst thing I could do, surpass and ignore my emotions, and to be happier for everyone. This also includes putting others before myself always.  

Not so great...I know 

But its necessary, and wouldn't hurt anyone if I manage it correctly. 

Anyhow, unlike last time, I have an amazing boyfriend who is currently on a mission. He's been gone for almost 9 months, only a lot longer to go. Who knows where a year and half will take us. But lets cross our fingers shall we? I can only hope. 

Hopefully you all are here to experience the rollercoaster of emotions with me, or maybe it'll be just me. But I'm excited to see where this takes up. 

Sadly there is no picture of the day, maybe next time 

 - Noel 

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