Sad update, but hopeful days ahead

Today has been sightly good, but right now is purely awful. I guess the stresses of everyday life, and the future are really starting to get to me. But the worst part is that nobody understands me, nobody understands the emotional baggage I'm carrying, and frankly, it feels as if only some care. 

My mom keeps getting mad at me for every little thing I do, for example, she thought that I was mad because I looked at her. Apparently, I was glaring at her. 

...I don't know what to say or think 

Right now, I'm near my lowest low, and far from my highest high. I don't know how to get out of this deep dark pit. Maybe its better if I stay there. 

I hate the person I'm slowly becoming, and hate how I'm acting. Back then, I used to be sweet and kind to those around me. But this year, I've been snapping at everybody, and creating burdens for those around me. Originally, I thought it would be helpful to suppress my emotions. But I can't even do that! A simple task can't even be completed by me! 

So who am I? 

Deep down, I wish I knew. It would be make things a lot easier. But for now, I'm someone who is lost in the grand forest of life. 

 - Noel